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Finding familiar faces
while looking at strangers
feels like I’m hallucinating
this is weirdly fascinating
Feels like I’m losing my mind
This is so fun but I’m losing time
What do I do with this information
This is a very strange situation
I’m just trying to enjoy my life
I just want to feel divine
Now I’m making scenarios everywhere I go
Living the life of a boho
Everything’s making me frustrated
Thanks for the compliment, now I hate it
I’m so confused with how I’m acting
Everything just feels so distracting
Am I going crazy or am I missing my friends?
Everyday feels like it never ends
I wish I didn’t “faked it till I made it”
Cause now I feel like I’m stuck in this pit
The pit is full of insecurities
That have blossomed into maturity
Everyone seems to have their life together
Take a closer look we’re suffering altogether
Don’t be so fooled
Everyone has Improved
Their acting skills with their moods
We’re gonna break eventually
Cause everyone always does
And the adults will get there buzz
Cause breaking us is fun
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your bright hair
03:40
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i haven't felt this way in a long time
i can’t help but feel this way when you’re there
sitting over there minding your business
i wanna brush my hand through your cute hair
But i know you wouldn’t want me
Why would you anyway?
It’s not like i have anything to offer
I just like you, okay?
You’ve got bright dyed hair but it’s fading
And your roots are growing back in
But that’s not a bad thing
In fact it’s something that i’m liking
I think that it’s cool on you
Please just give me a chance
I’ll like all of your interests
I just wanna hold your hands and dance
I know you play music too, so do i
You can play your instrument and i’ll play mine
We could form a band and it wouldn’t even matter
As long as we sound fine
I hate my corny lyrics
i wish i could tell you how i feel
But i don’t know how i feel
But i know talking to you feels so surreal
I know i should man-up and talk to you
But i don’t feel like a man, at least not now
I’m too nervous and not confident
I’m too scared to be friends, let alone boyfriends
I know you play music too, so do i
You can play your instrument and i’ll play mine
We could form a band and it wouldn’t even matter
As long as we sound fine
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I really thought I loved you I really did
Didn’t mean to lead you on
Now I’m writing this stupid song
To get the feelings I feel out
I don’t think you know what this is about
I thought I loved you
There was something there
But it was platonic
And I didn’t know I swear
You figured it out and left me
And I’m so sorry
Didn’t realise I don’t feel that way
The problems of an aroace
I guess I loved you too much
That I mistook platonic for love
You really did fall for me
And I feel horrible I plead
All I want is you back
But I also want you happy
So I’m just gonna sit down
And watch from afar and see
You happy
Pretty sad I’ll never experience love
The only love I have is for my friends and family
I will always second guess myself
I’ll always make an excuse
Haven’t met the right person
Right person wrong time
In a different life
No it has to be mine
I’ll upset everyone if I don’t fall in love
All I want is to fall in love
Fall in love
All I want is to fall in love
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two more years
02:56
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Don’t be so dramatic
Only 2 more years you’ll manage
Everyday I hear these words
Each time a part of me burns
I’m sick of living everyday just barely getting by
It’s like a part of me has died
And it won’t come alive
Cant you see my tired eyes?
Maybe I hide them well with my lies
It’s just been a hard day today
When really it’s the same everyday
My heart screams for help
But my brain won’t let it peep not a yelp
Just accept all the things they say
2 more years all you gotta do is stay
Every hour stays the same
You talkin bout the problem I am what a shame
I’m sorry, I’m trying my best
In the end it’s not good enough to express
If I try you’ll say you did it too
Only difference is the expectations you put me through
My head hangs low
Trying not to show
The pain in my heart
Cause If I do you’ll start
I’ve done this
You’ll be right
Don’t worry
You’ll make it out alive
Sometimes I’m not sure I might
Just try your best
Just get good grades
Do all the homework set for you
Just behave
That’s all they say
What about my dreams?
What about my passions?
What about my friends?
What about my life?
What about my happiness?
What about my motivation?
What about my life?
What about my life?
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I write the same lyrics
I play the same 4 chords
About how i feel
I’m slamming my foot in the door
If it makes me feel bad
Then i can write a song about it
If it makes me feel bad
Then i can cry about it
My lyrics aren’t that great
My voice is a cringy whine
I wish these songs were better
I wish i could make you mine
So i could stop
Obsessing over you
And make these songs
Bearable to listen to
I will hold myself to a higher standard
I will write better songs for you
I will tell a better story
These songs will be twice as long
If you need i will sing
My shitty songs the way you want
If it makes you happy
I know that sounds sappy
If you need i will sing
My shitty songs the way you want
If it makes you happy
I know that sounds sappy
I will hold myself to a higher standard
I will write better songs for you
I will tell a better story
These songs will be twice as long
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Little Jeremy has been through a lot
Starting with the founding fathers Oscar, Danny and Savy
Little Jeremy has been on many adventures
But now one of the founding fathers has left and he hasn’t been on many
He once got to see the world
But then he was trapped and was a little concerned
He just wants to travel the world with his family
Like they did on TV
But I guess it wasn’t so easy
Jeremy in the draw overthinking his life
Like what did I do to deserve this
Why have I been dismissed by them
Little Jeremy was losing his mind
He was thinking maybe he was left behind
Then one day the draw opens
He finally sees a founding father’s face
He’s so happy he beams with joy
Then he sees the look of concern on the founding fathers face
And he hears one of his eyes is gone without a trace
But that doesn’t matter to little Jeremy
He’s just happy he’s been let into the light
So now he sits on top of the desk under the draw used to be in
He hopes he’ll go on many adventures once again
I guess we’ll have to see little Jeremy
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i had everything
02:04
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Sleeping peacefully
Only to wake up unhappy
You’re just apart of my dream
You’re a fantasy
I thought I was okay
Until I woke up that day
Feelings of guilt swarm me
I’m miserable can’t you see?
I keep waiting for someone to appear in my life
A part of me has died
My eyes are shutting like heavy bricks
Before they close the clock ticks
Everything I’ve done flashes before my eyes
They tear, up I cry
Everything I ever wanted was in front of me
How dumb, could I be?
I thought I never had anything
I had, everything
Now I’m floating in this abyss
And I can’t help but reminisce
Thinking all about my past
This feeling can’t last
If it does I’ll fall depressed
So I’ll just try my best
But how could I recover
When I lost and I suffered
Never know what you had till you lost it
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I’m so stupid for getting my hopes up
i’m beating myself up over you
because you make me feel a certain way
but it’s not like you care
i hate your stupid hair
that looks so good on you
that goddamned pink
it’s my favourite colour too
I know it was never that serious
We weren’t even a thing
I was just an over obsessive crush
But i’m still crying
When all i could think was how i wanted to hold you
But now all i think about is how to forget you
I held my hand(heart) out for you
to hold and you just broke it
i wish i could forget you quicker
because i feel that you hate me
because i’m scared to talk to you
and you never talk to me
I hope you're just tired
And you’ll love me in the morning
Because i liked how we talked that one day in the city
But we’ll never talk like that again
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mismatched heart
02:12
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I’ve kept up this act for so long
I never realised what I was doin was wrong
I’ve tried my best to cover the bruise
Not let anyone know that this is all a ruse
Don’t want people to realise I have a heart
Because then I’ll just fall apart
I used to hate when people said I was so cold
But now I feel like these emotions can’t be controlled
If I let out a peep
The feelings will creep
To the point of no return
When will I learn?
These feelings feel so wrong
I’ve gotta keep my cool, stay strong
I don’t know what I will do
But I’ve been feeling so blue
But how do I keep the broken pieces attached
All the pieces don’t seem to fit, mismatched
I try my best to make sure I don’t crash
But my life keeps going by me like a flash
I hate the way I feel
I know it’s human but I don’t want it to be real
I wish I could just stop
Maybe then I could feel like I’m on top
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sunday july 8th
02:14
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i walked home from a party i had no interest in being in, on the way home i saw the old abandoned railroad i haven’t visited in months. i don’t go out much these days. i was walking along the tracks when i saw a couch that someone must’ve put there next to some small trees along the tracks, i had a memory of this place.
almost two years ago me and him kissed for the first time, 666 days now to be exact. we’re not together anymore, we didn’t last that long, but we’re still on good terms and we talk occasionally. around a year ago he moved an hour and a half away, i’m over him romantically of course but i want to see him again, it’s been way too long since i last saw him and he’s a good friend and i miss him.
i know we’ve both changed a lot. but when we talk i feel the spark that made us such close friends, i feel that it’s still there.
one day i’ll take a train, and endure however long it’ll be until i see him again, and i’ll write this song about him, and i’ll tell him about it, and he’ll hopefully listen to it, and if he does, and he hears this part now, i miss you
portraits imitate broken records
i won’t forget these good memories
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